Not a Failure

Two nights ago on Friday I was getting ready to go home early. I had finished my exams. To leave campus all I had to do was clean my room. I just wanted to take a nap but I ended up oversleeping by a few hours. I came out of my room after waking up and was getting ready to clean my room and pack up my car. I saw a friend on the hall came up and asked how he was doing he said fine. Just small talk. The conversation ended and as he left the hall. I just stood there frozen. I ran out of the hall caught up with him and asked what was going on. I really didn’t know but he had been thrown off the hall, his keys were taken away from him and his door was locked so he couldn’t get his stuff out of his room. After this I felt like something weird was up I called a friend who knew him better and asked him concerning my dorm mate’s stress. I told him I felt like something was up and he agreed. So I waited outside by dorm mate’s new hall for a few minutes while trying to get in. I eventually caught up to him and told him to come to dinner with me.  We got our food and sat down said grace and started eating. Nothing was being said and I had no clue what to do. I asked him what he was thinking. He was planning on killing himself. This entire time I was praying while he was talking. He just started crying. He has a hard time making friends and he had been thrown off of his hall a week before the semester ended. He said how he feels like no one cares about him and how he is a failure. He told me that no one would care if he died. I told him a cared and I was his friend. I told him that if he would have done this to himself he would hurt me. I told him not to hurt me and he made a promise that he wouldn’t again. I told him that other people care about him and that they would be hurt too if he had hurt himself. He texted them and they showed up within minutes and reinforced everything that was said. We talked for a long time. We got back to his new hall. His new R.A. hear the situation, called him up and hung out with him the entire night and introduced him to other guys on the hall. This all started because his roommates made him feel isolated and alone. That night something bad was going to happen and God saved his life. All people just need someone to talk to and someone to tell them how much they are worth in the eyes of God. He is priceless and now he knows it.

Big Thanks

So thanks to the people that helped and especially thanks to God. I saw Him the entire time. So it was the following day and we met Allen at his house. I came up and said “Hey, Allen. You remember when I said I could do everything I could.” He said ya. I told him why don’t you come over and help me out with some stuff in the car. Two cars fully stacked with food and $300 left over. He started crying a little and repeatedly said thank you. To be honest it was the most sincere reactions I have ever seen. To be honest I don’t think he understood what was happening. We unloaded food for about 20 minutes and I don’t think it had completely sunk into him yet. Anna his girlfriend was crying the entire time though in little bursts. Once everything was loaded in their house we told them we had money left over and we headed out to Wal-Mart for some additional supplies because we didn’t know everything they needed. So we got there and I was hanging with Anna. She was pampering herself for the first time in the most minute way though. She got a blue outfit and some fruit spray and shampoo and conditioner. She got new underwear and bras. She felt blessed with the things that we all take for granted. Allen got 2 pairs of shoes and we ended up getting some more food. We headed back and when we got there we unloaded again. We got in and everything was done that we could do and we were ready to head out. They asked if we could just stay a little longer and her threw in some pizza’s and just started talking. By the way while we were there it was impossible to sit because the entire room was stacked with food. How cool is that! When we were at Wal-Mart we had orders from Allen’s mom to come back with some black Reebok shoes. When we came back to the house she walked back and forth in the room every 5 minutes talking about her new shoes. She hadn’t had a new pair of shoes in 45 years. After we ate some pizza we started talking and they were just so thankful. We got them their own bibles and some devotional material. Throughout the last 2 weeks we have been talking back and forth. Progress is being made and God is sweet!

11/17/11