This Last Weekend

So I am trying to do a catch up of what’s been going on in the last few months but this last weekend I came home for fall break and I had breakfast with my cousin which was a pretty big deal considering I have not talked to her in the last 6 years because of a family dispute. As a Christian how hypocritical am I to cut off my cousin so I had breakfast with her in Tysons, VA at silver diner we talked and it was awesome to see her. I missed her so much; when I was younger I spent time with her constantly. She was the one who taught me how to tell the difference between my left and right. But while I was talking to her I realized how spiritually lost she was. We talked about what she believed and all I can say is it didn’t get anywhere but I will continue to pray for her and hope that her hearts becomes open. I think she misunderstood why I was there. I think she thought I had the intentions of evangelizing to her I didn’t I just wanted to know her point of view. I text her after explaining that and how I was just there because she was my family and I love her. Which I can see sounds hypocritical considering I cut all contact from my cousin for 6 years but I hope she knows that I meant it sincerely. Then I finally finished my sister birthday present which was 3 weeks to late but I gave her the notes and highlights from my bible transferred to one for her…it took forever haha but so worth it. And then the last day, Sunday right before I went to dinner with my dad I gave told my mom something. Previously I used to be in the party scene and it was never bad enough that something had to shock me to stop I just got tired with it and I had stashes of alcohol throughout my house. To be honest I completely forgot about it but I piled all of them up and I told my mom I just didn’t have a need for them anymore. I brought her into my room to show her and she was shocked. She didn’t know if she was supposed to punish me or congratulate me. I knew this cause when told me lol but about 4 feet or stacked alcohol probably estimating around $400. I really didn’t think that it would be such a big deal but after I felt sooo much better. The cool thing is when I used to say I was Christian I would do things gradually that I thought were good but I just feel like I’m just acting like this because…no intensions behind my actions, just because. It feels great and I am so thankful to have this blessing in my life. I will write some more tomorrow but now I am officially pooped and going to bed. Goodnight God, keep my friends and family safe and let others see You through Your followers actions in love for You, Amen.